Lonely looking sky!

Lonely looking sky!

And being lonely

Makes you wonder why.

Neil Diamond from the soundtrack of Jonathan Livingstone Seagull

One of the great invitations from storyteller Clarissa Pinkola Estes’ book Women Who Run With the Wolves is “Do not fear not knowing. In various phases and period of our lives, this is how it should be.”Most of us fear this ‘not knowing.’ We are like trees pushing for the buds to open. We wait in a lonely looking sky and push with our logic chopping brain to make sense of it all.  We might wonder why but there is more of the why than the wonder.

This place of ‘not knowing’ is uncomfortable.  We are taught that life is about get up and go.  We are taught that life is about producing.  We are not taught that life is about birth and death and life.  In this cycle there is a time of incubation.  There is a time when the old is dying for the new to be born.

This is the phase of not knowing. What we tend to do is extend this period through resistance in order to avoid this frustrating ‘not knowing’ and we rehash the old and dress old wine in new wine skins.  This rehash is willed from the discomfort of ego rather than creative birthing from the soul.

We see this approach in our collective relationship to nature.  We view nature as something we use as a productive resource.  In a natural organic cycle of food production we allow the land to rest.  With our agribusiness focus we pour more chemicals on the soil to speed up the product cycle and do not allow the soil to recuperate.

What is the answer to this issue?  First, become aware of your fear of not knowing what the future holds.  This is usually a projection.  Come back to the present moment through focusing on the breath.  Do this as a regular practice and you will find this can become an anchor when your mind starts to fly off into a lonely looking sky and rather than feel any sense of wonder being filled with worry.

The next exercise is not popular but I am going to write it.  You are here to ser creation and you are not here to serve yourself.  This is why many of us get lonely and even get depressed.  We don’t know what to do with ourselves and we don’t know who or why we are here.  In one sense depression is a healthy response to a sick situation.

Krishnmurti, this writer’s first teacher, was interviewed by a press correspondent who began by asking, “Well, Mr. Krishnamurti, it is said you believe…”  Krishnamurti quickly corrected this correspondent’s view by replying, “You are wrong. I do not believe at all. I know.”

Carl Gustav Jung, the famous Swiss psychologist, issued a similar reply to such a question. “Why believe when you know.”

This is the invitation from “Do not be afraid of not knowing.”  It can be the prelude to your becoming the knowing of who you are.  It can become the prelude to you being born anew into the full realization of your being here now.

Real education that focused on the cycle of creation would teach you this.  Then you would be less resistant to change that invariably comes.  You would grow into your soul invitation and you would become an Anamcara.  The experience of not knowing might never be a delight but at least you would not feel so afraid of going into the unknown.

All mystics will issue the greatest invitation: “Die before you die.”  To the logic chopping mind that wants to know everything and arrogantly thinks it can know everything this does not make sense.  To the soul it is wisdom that is sensational.  If you live this invitation you will not be afraid of not knowing for you will become the not knowing that paradoxically is the experience of infinite intelligence.

Out of what appears to be ‘not knowing’ can come ‘all knowing’.  The way to get there is a paradox.  You let go and you trust the process.  You practice a sense of humility and get out of the way.  The creative intelligence that creates you also creates all things and knows what it is doing.  If you had faith in it the size of a mustard seed you would know this.

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